I'm Gonna Miss You

Yes, I admit. I admit that even though it's just maybe half my day without you by my side, without you holding my waist, without hearing to your voice, I miss you so damn badly. To be honest, I did never miss someone that badly, not even my family members but yes, you're the only one so far.

So, starting April I won't be seeing you around at school nor after school either. You said you would only be gone for 3 days for your badminton tournament and even though I'll still get to see you at tuition, the feeling is different. You'll be tired at tuition, and I know you won't be the usual you anymore.

Believe me for this time. I'll be missing you so badly. I'll miss the moment when you waited outside the school for me and your brother. I'll miss the moment when you and Meow come over few minutes before the bell rang and our recess is over. I'll miss the moment when I could place my hand onto your body. Trust me, I'll really miss you a lot when you're not here.

I'LL MISS AND LOVE YOU

Sincerely, 

yenn :)

Fight For It

So, today I went for badminton with my fellow classmates. All of us had a great time being together. We planned to get a birthday cake for our friend, Eiman as well. It was a surprise one. But, it was kinda failed at last. Sigh, but who cares? As long as we get to have fun spending time around and the most epic thing was we threw flour on Eiman as his birthday present from all of us.

After that, both, me and him went to have lunch together. Finally, this time without any light bulbs or anything, just the two of us. During that time, I got to know that he actually did write something bout me or maybe us, I'm not so sure bout this. He just let me to see one of his posts and I think that is already enough. I did begged him to let me see more, but he refused. The bad news was I got scared in the end. Maybe because he said he would let me to see all of it after SPM.

My mind started to think on the negative side again. "What if we can't last till we finish our SPM and spend the rest of our life together?" I don't want to break down right in front of him again. So, we both ended up leaving the restaurant in silence but, holding each other's hand as tight as we could, not letting any one of us to even give up on each other. I will always love you with all my heart. So, in that way we both know for a fact that we can't live without each other, why not we just make a choice to fight for it, no matter how long and how hard it would be? I Love You

Sincerely, 

yenn :)