Day 5

I don't know is the time flying fast or slow, but it's now the fifth day and it's the end. Actually, his tournament ended yesterday, but he went there again today for his medal. And so, he got the third place and a bronze medal. I am proud to have him though.

The weird thing is he said sorry yesterday and today because he felt that he was leaving me alone all the time. I didn't feel any loneliness though, except today at school. Either I'm too tired yesterday or I'm too busy with my pile of works which is never ending.

Even he's at school today, but I can't see him the whole day until it's 12.30. Due to the fact that he was away to take his medal. When he said that he won't be at school during recess, my mood was getting down. But, somehow not to make him not worried of me, I said it's okay. You don't have to tell me those stuffs. But, deep inside I'm literally dying. Sorry for not telling you straight at school just now.

It's a lucky thing that I brought my phone to school today. I text him and said I miss him so damn badly. To be honest, I did never missed someone this much before, except him. Getting him into my life, I could feel a lot of difference, in any way. I wish I could hug him before he leave just now, but too bad, there's no chance for me to hug him tightly, like I've always wanted.

While I was on my way to Central Market just now, I was already dying actually. Dying because of the fact I won't get to see him anymore till next week. How sad I would be. Sigh. I am even skipping tuition to go back to hometown for some reason. I won't be able to see him. I would seriously miss him so damn badly man. So badly. After this week and my competition day on 9th April, I wish everything could be back to normal. I don't feel like going through the days at school without him anymore. I Love You

Sincerely,

yenn :)

Day 4

It's the end of the days I'm at school without him. I just realized one thing, I miss him so damn badly. I knew I miss him these few days but never knew it was actually a lot. I just realized it when I was walking back home from the bus stop. Wow, what a feeling I had these days.

Don't really know why, I was actually happy when he managed to get into semi-finals but lose. Maybe because I could see him back, or maybe I'm happy because he actually did try his best to win a medal home. Honestly speaking, I am proud to be his girlfriend. Damn proud, I would say.

I miss him so badly. Whenever my mood is bad, all I need was him to be there. Even if he does not do a single thing, my mood would change. Change into a better one, of course. I can't stop smiling while I'm posting this post. Seriously, I think my mood is super good today.

Later for dinner, I'll get to meet my cousin brother, whom I miss him badly too. Never realize I am actually missing my cousin till today. I'm kinda excited to see him for dinner and spend some time with him during the weekends later. Okay, gotta go now. Finish up my homework and sleep and forget the world. I Love You

Sincerely, 

yenn :)

Day 3

So, here comes the third day I'm at school without him. Just got to know from him that, he will continue his tournament tomorrow. Well, he said it would be the finals for him, even though it's not even semi-final yet, if I'm not mistaken. He loses his singles today. But, at least he did try his best to win that tournament. To be honest, I'm proud to have a boyfriend like him. Especially when my tuition teacher always say his the best badminton player in our tuition center. I was like, "Who's boy is that?" "His mine. You take him from me, you will die."

To my surprise, my mood was not bad today. Maybe because I'm too busy with my work or my mood is really good. Till now, I've got no idea. Or maybe because he gave me a bar of chocolate before he leaves, guess that changes my mood for the whole day. When I got the bar of chocolate from him, I was like. Thank you so much, dear. That's what I've been craving for these days. He knows me so well, and of course I'm so happy just like a little kid got sweets from someone.

He'll be gone again tomorrow. For the doubles. And the sad thing is I won't be able to see him anymore, unless we are both at school. I don't want to miss any single moment that I could actually spend with him. I realize that this year, we are spending lesser time being together because of our SPM. That 3 letter word is freaking important for us. It decides where we stand in the future. That is another part of the story of our lives.

But, for now, why don't we just appreciate each and every single thing that is happening in our lives? No matter how small is that thing, just appreciate it because you might not feel the same anymore if you had the chance to experience it again. And so for sure, I am gonna appreciate him like I could never find a guy like him anymore in my life. I Love You

Sincerely, 

yenn :)

Day 2

DIFFERENT. That was my feeling for the whole day long. Another good news from him to share, he won again. Both the singles and the doubles. I never knew that my boyfriend could be that powerful. Of course it's good that he win it again after yesterday's match. But, it's NEVER good if he still couldn't come to school after 2 days, if I were to be selfish.

Today at school was not as busy as yesterday. Homework were way much lesser as compared to yesterdays. It's kinda like a good and also a bad news for me. Maybe because for the fact of I wanted to be as busy as I could be so that I don't think of not being able to see him for few days. I took my leg off the pedal today. Guess I was too tired after all. I only slept for 3 hours yesterday to finish up homework but those teachers do not want the homework today. Fuck them man, seriously, fuck them.

Another great news was, he won't be able to come to tuition for the first subject, which is English. I did acted and told him to skip both the classes, English and BM, now that I know he can't make it for English, my heart broke. Luckily I managed to hold on to my tears now as it is almost time for me to prepare for tuition at 6 later. My mood would be super duper down later. Guess I can't even smile at class later. Okay, maybe I could, but it's a fake one.

I'm hungry now as I never had anything for my lunch. Bad news is I'm craving for Chatime, again. How I wish Chatime was opened just right next to my tuition center. All I could do, is just crave for it. It's too late for me to purposely get a bus down to Prima, and get back the bus to my tuition center. That's all for today. I Love You

Sincerely,

yenn :)

Day 1

So, today was just the first day I went to school without him as he was away for his badminton tournament. Good thing that he actually won both the singles and the doubles. But, the bad news would be, he will be gone for another day fighting for the champion. Good news for him, but bad news for me.

Never thought that I was actually lonely during recess because I was so used with him lingering around the canteen with his best friend. And I straight went back home after school, I felt so different without need to wait for him at the school entrance. It is DIFFERENT. For the whole day, I felt that something is missing from the pieces of my life. Part of me was with him, but trust me, the majority was with me, especially during Accounts. I WAS LONELY TODAY. I Love You

Sincerely, 

yenn :)

For Now and Always

Maybe it's time for all of us to grow up. Grow up and be a matured girl, impress each and every person in your life.

Nowadays, I regretted for asking you to prompt me that much. It's not what I wanted now. I want to grow old with you so that I could tell our story to our children, our grandchildren about how long we lasted. I wish you could be here now. Telling me everything is just gonna be fine. Okay, maybe not now. But after you're back from your tournament, I would never let you leave anymore. Let me be selfish, but I just want you to be mine. I don't like sharing you with other people.

I always ask myself and him those questions with an "IF" and he answered everything just like how I wish he could answer it. Maybe it wasn't really true, but that's what I want to hear from him.

Till today, I still can't forget the day that I cried right in front of him. I can't believe that I did actually showed him the broken part of me. Actually he doesn't need to do anything when I'm tearing apart. All I need him to do is just be there, hug me tightly, pat me and my hair, wipe away the tears that is running down my face, tell me there's nothing to be afraid of. After I cried and calm myself down, we hugged each other damn tight and we headed out for lunch with our friends.

I asked him to believe me, because I cried too much recently. Just too much. Too much till I couldn't remember when was the last time I cried. Maybe after the first week of April, the Puiyen that he used to loved and cherished would be back. I Love You

We'll grow up and grow old together

We'll go through the whole world together

We'll be there for each other 

We'll always find back the way to each other no matter how hard it is

NOW AND FOREVER

Sincerely, 

yenn :)