I'm Sorry

I'm sorry for how I reacted yesterday. I know I shouldn't behave like that, but I just can't help myself but to react like that. I'm really sorry. I know you would like to comfort me by telling me that everything would be just fine, even it's not for later in the future but it would be just fine for now.

The chance last night was once in a blue moon chance. I know I should appreciate that chance a lot, but I just behaved the way both of us hated the most. You said it's okay and stuffs like that, but to me it's not that okay. I ruined everything. The chance to have some private little time with you, the chance to appreciate you better and everything.

I was guilty for what I've done. Even you said I'm forgiven, I still can't stop blaming myself. You said you didn't get to enjoy the time we spent together that much, and I know it's because of me. I was scared for the whole day long. From morning all the way till evening. Like you said, I get more scared when we both are together, alone.

There's actually a few times I would cry if there wasn't any people around us. But, luckily I did managed to hold it up till I'm all alone. You said you wanna comfort me the next time I cry, right? So, hold on to me as you'll have that little chance to comfort me. I need you to comfort me every single time, not only when I'll cry. I know you would and you could do this, but I just wish it could really last forever and ever. For now and for forever.

You said you might not be the best for me whenever you see me like that. But, you know that I really appreciate you more than I wanted too. It's just that I'm might not be the perfect one for you. Yet. No, not now. Maybe later? After a few couples of years time? And in the mean time, of course I would really appreciate you for all I want, and also as much as you really do.

And I didn't have the chance to say thanks to your kisses yesterday. So, I would like to say thank you to you through my post here. I know you just feel like to do it, and so you really did it. Thanks for those comforting kisses on my foreheads, my face and everything. Thank you so much.

I'm really sorry again for how I reacted and what I did till it ruined your mood yesterday. I will appreciate you as much as you're appreciating me. Sorry and thank you for the memory that we both had when we are together. I love you.

Sincerely,

yenn :)