Afraid

When would this scared feeling get rid of me? I'm tired of being afraid all the time. I know you said you'll always be there for me whenever I need you but, how long could you be there? If one of my nightmares come true, how would we face it?

You'll always find a way to get back to me rite? No matter how hard is it, no matter how long you have to find the way,  you'll always remember our little vow rite? Actually, that day in the cinema I asked you to be mine forever. I know I'm selfish to keep you forever, but I'm afraid either of us can't hold on each other as tight as we wanted too.

I traced your face and lips that day, because I'm afraid. I'm seriously afraid that I couldn't trace it anymore in the future. And I'm sorry for making you scared as well in the end of the day. Every time I'm afraid, I wish you would be here, hug me tightly, and tell me everything is just gonna be all right. At least for now.

I need you to STAY with me. Only me. I always said I belong to you, means I'm really afraid that one day I'm not yours anymore, and you're not mine anymore. Whenever I asked you not to leave me alone anymore, it actually means I want you to be here to comfort me, like what you did always.

I don't wish to be your first, but please make me your LAST, would you? And please don't make me hate and disbelief in the word FOREVER anymore, would you? Thanks for accepting me just the way I am, and not changing it into your dream girl. I Love You. 

Sincerely, 

yenn :)