Honesty

Too busy to update my blog these few days. Exams, I HATE you. A lot. And maybe you didn't realize, or maybe you just pretend like you don't see it my heart kinda broke few times, maybe a little too much because of your words. I can't tell you straight to your face, but I hope you know it indirectly.

To be honest, you broke my heart again just now before I went to the bus stop alone. That was why I didn't wait for you to come down with me. By asking you to come over to my house, it's useless actually. I know but, I still want to ask it from you. I just wanna spend more time with you, that was why I asked you to come. But now, forget bout it. Our time that we could spend together now is way much lesser than last time. Way too much.

The moment your best friend asked me, should he come to school and be a good guy tomorrow,with you, I don't like that moment. It seems like him (your friend) is taking you to somewhere and I'm not allowed to follow. Yes, I know I'm selfish but let me be selfish just to have more time with you? But, I know it would never happen again. You wouldn't leave your friends for me, and neither I would do the same thing for you. I am the type of person who would treat you, just like how I want to treat you. Respect me, and I'll respect you. So, respect yourself first, before you want others to respect you.

To be honest, I don't really like the intention of you spending more time with him, rather than you spend more time with me. I hate it, quite a lot. I know I shouldn't, but I just couldn't control the eager inside me to spend more time with you.

We just passed our 10 month anniversary before this. Well, we didn't really celebrate it but you're the longest guy I've been together with. I didn't even thought that I could actually had 10 months and more with you. People always asked me, "What, you guys never fight before? Not even once?" My response towards their question would be, "Nope. Even if the fight is already between us, we just end it. We will never let the fight to go on." I wish I could answer that kind of question in the future, even though it's still far away from now.

In my 17 years of life before this, I've never wanted a guy to be in my life as much as I want you to be in my life. So, please do me a simple favor. STAY, please. Just STAY. I Love You

Sincerely, 

yenn :)